Giveaway: Three Kindle Editions of Butterfly (Forgotten Children, #1)

Hello there all!!

How are you all doing?

The Summer season has started and…I’m not so excited that it’s Summer; I’m more of a Winter girl myself, so I’ve got to fill this blisteringly hot season with exciting things!

Let’s start with a giveaway!

Butterfly (Forgotten Children, #1)

Three Kindle Editions of Butterfly (Forgotten Children, #1) are up for grabs!


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About the Book:

Ellis McGowan, a child psychiatrist, thought he had seen and heard it all, especially with a wife, Jodie, in the same emotionally-draining profession. When the fire and collapse of an Abbey in the vicinity of their home leaves traumatised children of all ages displaced Ellis is ready to help in any way he can. Soon enough, he finds that everything is not as they imagined; more children than what were originally documented escaped from that building, many with no traceable origins and Ellis needs to find out why, prepared to go to great lengths to do so.

Zack and Alex, the eldest known survivors, soon find themselves in an environment radically different from what they are used to. In a warm, inviting household and faced with a real family the two aren’t sure how to handle things but are certain they will never be able to tell others what went on in their pasts.

Unwilling to lose all faith in the system, and his profession, Ellis is determined to get answers out of the boys to save them, and the others, from the torture they have been subjected to, even while knowing that the Abbey walls were easier to knock down than the ones that had formed around their hearts.


Most Stubborn Character – Zack from Butterfly

Originally Posted on 26th April 2013 on Shattering Words as part of the Butterfly Blog Tour


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Over the years I’ve had my fair share of stubborn characters. I’ve had characters that were irritatingly stubborn with their peers but also characters who were purely stubborn with me. Occasionally, most frustratingly, I have one that refuses to cooperate with anyone, me especially. Mary from Secrets Clad in Light was particularly stubborn with me, refusing to cooperate whatsoever, and although she had stubborn streaks within the novel she seemed almost agreeable there when compared to the run-around that she gave me.

It seems there’s always a competition between my characters for the one that is most difficult and stubborn to work with and in my latest novel, Butterfly, young Zack became triumphant.

I almost don’t even know where to begin with him. It was required for him to be a little stubborn and, knowing what I did about his background when I first started writing him, it was perfectly understandable also. For a while it was tolerable because it served the story in the way I had imagined but no matter how long I wrote him, or what point in the story we were in, some way or another he was always fighting something.

In his defence, I would say that if anyone had any reason to fight it would be him. Zack endured a lot in his childhood and from the beginning it is easy to tell that, as much as he acted like things were fine and he was in control, he was someone with turmoil in his head, someone with shattered trust that left shards around a heart that had endured irreparable damage. Zack was the most resilient when it came to the changes that were forced upon him at the start of the book because he had somewhat gotten used to the misery he was living and he had created all the necessary defences inside himself to cope with them as much as possible. He wasn’t ready to let those defences down and he certainly knew what letting them down meant; it would give people the chance to get close to him, hurt him, and leave.

Zack was not only stubborn when confronted but also when he was the one doing the confronting. When he sensed that something was wrong with Alex and that the person he was closest to was suffering silently he was very strong and adamant in his approach and he would not give up. While previously his attempts were to protect himself from further pain, this time his stubbornness was used to protect the only person that he ever felt was worth caring for. He wasn’t going to give up on someone he loved do deeply, though never would he have accepted the same type of response from the other either. There are a few things that Zack finds worth protecting; those things take all his determination and strength, especially if it means persisting the way he does with Alex.

With me, I suppose Zack’s stubbornness was also well-founded; he refused to do things he wasn’t ready to do and at times that halted what I had planned for him. However, it made way for more interesting, sometimes heart-breaking, moments as everyone struggled to get through to him and as Zack broke slowly but surely…

A small taste of Zack’s resilience…

Ellis turned him around harshly, looking him deep in his eyes. He wasn’t fine now and he wasn’t going to be fine later. “You know that this is more than you can handle by yourself.”

“That’s not true.”

“You’re worried about yourself and you’re worried about how you’re going to take care of Alex with this. Why are you fighting us when you know we can help with both?” Zack held firmly onto the windowsill, his body beginning to shake from repressed sobs. Ellis reached out and touched his back gently, “It’s alright to be scared and worried, Zack; you’re human.”

He turned the boy around slowly and pulled him closer, taking small subtle steps to close the last of the distance. “No,” Zack began pushing him away, his strength wavering, “stop.”

“Zack, it’s alright to be scared.”

“I’m not scared!!” He shouted out and with that went his remaining strength; he collapsed into Ellis’ waiting arms.

Character Interview: Ellis McGowan from Butterfly (Forgotten Children, #1)


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Today we’ll be talking to Ellis McGowan, the psychiatrist who worked with the children in the much-talked about Abbey disaster.

Originally, we hoped and planned to interview Zack and Alex, the two eldest victims of the tragedy, whom have been in your care for the past few months. What is the reason you have turned up in their place?
The situations they’ve been in lately, the things they’ve been through, have made them eager to please but, from getting to know them, I realise that this isn’t what they’d want for themselves; they don’t want to talk about this to anyone they don’t trust. I wouldn’t want them to feel like they had to do something to please me, or anyone else. I gave them a choice, they took the one that felt right to them and I wouldn’t have it any other way.

You seem to have gotten to know them quite well in the past few months, something you had mentioned was certainly not going to be easy. Was it truly very difficult for you?
It was difficult for everyone. I felt an unbelievable amount of pressure to make things right for everyone and to do that I needed to be wise in my approach with all the children. Zack and Alex are particularly…mature so even the way I dealt with them had to be different from the way I dealt with the younger ones. That made it difficult for me. I consulted with my wife also; that put pressure on her. It was certainly difficult for them too, of course; they went from holding everything inside themselves like a secret that needed to be protected with their lives and to take them out of that took a lot of effort on their part.

It’s been known for a while that your wife, though unofficially, played quite a big part in all this because you took Zack and Alex into your home. That’s unusual practice, isn’t it?
It was an unusual situation; sometimes unusual situations need to be tackled in some unusual, possibly controversial, ways.

Do you worry about the responses you received due to this decision?
The decision came quickly but not easily; I did it for the benefit of the children. If I wanted to think only of myself I would have let the state put Zack and Alex in another institution before they were ready, away from all the rest, and put my mind at ease that I could go home and take myself away from it all for a few hours. I didn’t; I went straight from work in the hospital where the younger children were to work at home where they were. That meant it was always on my mind and I was always trying to move things in the right direction. Even if I questioned myself at times I still knew I was doing the right thing for them; if other experts believe they could have received the same results in another way then that’s great, they’ll have something to work with if such a tragedy were to arise again.

You ended up taking the two boys in permanently, do you think that decision had anything to do with having taken them into your home?
My eldest, prior to Zack and Alex, was actually adopted so I’ve never been closed off to the thought of adopting again. One way or another this could have happened.

How is the family right now? They’ve gone through quite a lot of changes these past few months.
My eldest was a little apprehensive at first but my wife and I prepared her well; it didn’t take her too long to see the boys as part of the family. My wife…is incredible; she was in the late stages of her pregnancy when this all happened but she really worked hard and took it all in her stride. Alex warmed up to us all quicker than Zack but I think they’re finally grasping that they have family now. It’s a wonderful thing that my youngest will grow up seeing them as older brothers.

And you? How do you feel about all this now, especially now that you have good results?
I…almost don’t know how I feel. I struggled for a while to get the best results for everyone and, though things are far from perfect, now that things have fallen into place I feel good about everything. I think the best part is that it made me realise the strength and love within my family; as long as I have that to support me I feel like I can tackle anything. I love Zack and Alex like my own children, my family too, so I can only hope that they’ll always be aware of the strength and love we have for them so they can also feel like they can tackle anything.

Music Meme: Ayumi Hamasaki Songs Represent Me

A Song for XX Era:

Past me: A Song for XX

You will someday be betrayed by your trust in people.

I thought it was the same as being rejected.

At the time I didn’t have that kind of strength.

I definitely knew too much.

They always said I was a strong child.

They praised me, saying “you must be strong not to cry.”

The more people said things like that,

the more even laughing became agony.

Present me: SIGNAL

I’ve decided to zoom off when the next light turns green.

It turns yellow, and stops at red. Am I ready for this?

I’m tired of hearing the noise around me.

Even if only one person understands, it’s ok.

Let’s eat all the things we like, leaving none behind,

and throw away the things we hate.

LOVEppears Era:

Past me: Fly high

I’m afraid. The steps I can’t take

pile up, and turn into a long, long

path untravelled; I’m too late.

During that time, I started thinking that

somehow maybe even this place isn’t so bad.

I kept giving myself reasons.

Present me: Boys & Girls

What on earth do you want?

What on earth is missing?

And where on earth are you headed?

Even if someone asks me questions like that

I wouldn’t have the answers

But the moment you push me forward, don’t forget

That we promised this would finally be the summer

Duty Era:

Past me: End of the World

What should I think?

What should I say?

You’re probably the

first person who has

tried to understand me.

Present me: SURREAL

No matter how lonely you are

No matter how much pain you receive

You can’t shut off your feelings

Even if you’re lost for words

No matter how much you say you don’t care

If you stumble in the road, you’ll hold out your hands to break your fall

That’s the way it is.

I am… Era:

Past me: I am…

I want you to stare into my eyes and call my name

I want you to hold my hand and nod and say it’s OK

Push me, I don’t think I’ll be able to keep walking if you don’t

If this is a lie, at least keep up the lie until the end.

Present me: Daybreak

No matter how far apart we are,

we’re still under the same sky.

Don’t forget that we’re both

travelling to the place

we once dreamed of.


Past me: Heartplace

In this place

Where I feel stress even when breathing

I’ve come to be able to smile

Even when I feel no fun

I wonder if I have changed

Present me: Voyage

At the end of this long path, what will we think?

Everyone is a traveler, wandering about in search of love.

Let’s go together until we tire of it.

Memorial Address Era:

Past me: No way to say

Little by little, I’ve come to realize

That my past never heals

And that it’s no use

Fearing the future I can’t refuse.

Present me: Ourselves

Choosing where I want to end up

There are so many options

That I have no idea which one to choose

But a row of profiles

All walking towards the same future

Is more real than anything else

Because in the end

The only thing that has any meaning

Has to be love.


Past me: GAME

This time tomorrow I’ll be able to smile properly

Yeah, like nothing’s happened

I’ve always done that

But I can’t play this game, yeah, the way I thought.

Present me: INSPIRE

Yeah, I’ll get up time and time again

I’ve got to break down the walls

Not yet, it doesn’t start here

As long as this path continues, I’ve got to open the doors.

Yeah, people can’t live alone

Such a normal concept

Yeah, we can’t live without love

I’m realising that keenly now.

(miss)understood Era:

Past me: alterna

If you’re afraid of change

Watch me from a distance

If what I did do and didn’t do

Are the same, be honest.

It’s not such an outrageous thing

Don’t think too hard about it

I just mean that all I want now

Are the things I really want

That’s all.

Present me: Beautiful Day

The reason we’re afraid of tomorrow

Is because we can’t help being afraid of what we haven’t yet seen

But if tomorrow came with us already knowing what would happen

That’d be really boring

Don’t you think?

Secret Era:

Past me: until that Day…

Hey, the reason of this smile and the meaning of this word can’t be understood

Because I don’t even want to make them understood

It can’t be helped

Indeed, no one knows about real me

More than you.

Present me: Secret

Even if I get tired of flying

I don’t have the courage to lower my wings

If I could have one wish come true

Take me away from here.


Past me: talkin’ 2 myself

The reality always makes us run for nothing

But look ! Your own answer is hiding in it

If you have an unsatisfied feeling

That’s what you made by your hands.

Present me: decision

The road I chose when I was young

Was that of no turning back

That was the first and the last resolution

The future was yelling in the distance.

You see? My past self of that day

You see? Is nodding behind me.



When we feel the wind, let’s clench our hands tightly

Because we don’t need many words any more

When we feel the wind, let’s make a strong step

Let’s go with the same speed, looking at the same scenery.

Present me: Rule

I don’t want to be imposed on

By the same old stupid Rules

Let’s start first, you and me

By breaking the Rules.

Rock’n’Roll Circus Era:

Past me: Don’t look back

I want to go forward, and I don’t want to do so

Hesitating like this means that I don’t hesitate any more

If I stayed here, I suppose it might be easier

But nothing would make me burn with excitement.

Present me: Microphone

But I won’t hesitate anymore, and I won’t regret it

Meeting you was fate

Because you’re always

The one who teaches me what it means to be me

Who gives meaning to my existence.

Love songs Era:

Past me: crossroad

I had the feeling

That the profile of someone I passed by now

Looked like that of the girl

I had known before

But why was I just staring at her back

As she walked away

Without even being able to

Call to her?

Present me: Love song

A life without love?

I’m not confident I could live like that

A life without dreams?

I don’t want to imagine it

A life without song?

I can’t even guess what that would be like

Without uncompromisable thoughts

life would be meaningless and boring.



After I couldn’t see anything

I could see everything

The road ahead is too narrow

So I can’t walk with you anymore…

Present me: progress

If we know the same pain, bring along the same tenderness

And can change them into the strength to live on tomorrow, surely…

Party Queen Era:

Past me: the next LOVE

Loving the person I am, when did I last do that?

Coming to hate the person I am, have I become an adult?

Present me: Shake it

Innocently making easy things look tough

I admire such a charming talent, but

Easily meeting unexpected difficulties

That kind of charm is what I really love.